silver lining

there's so much i wanna say and write but i cant. im at a very dark place right now and i seriously think tht i shld keep my thoughts/feelings to myself rite now...i think its better for me to just sit in my room without lights listening to "beautiful" over and over again until i fall asleep...
i think i'll go do tht now and spare all u guys my sorrows..but i will leave u with this for thought

...when things go south ppl often say "there's always a sliver lining on every cloud"...
honestly this time i hope tht i dont loose it all and dont live the day to see the silver lining from this particular cloud...can i jump??