life is like a packet of M&M's

well today ended with a suprise...a not very nice suprise i guess...well i guess i hv to quote britney on this one.."ooppss i did it again"..well it doesnt take a rocket scientist to figure it out tht i pissed someone off yet again...sometimes i really really wonder why am i the only one tht pissed this person off...its like i hv tis natural ability to just irritate the hell out of this person due to some small insignificant silly remark/stuff/things i say (but normally its the last one)...

if u ask me..this is my slightly screwed up thoery... i think there's this mountain of expectation tht i hv to live up to every single hour/minute/second tht im wit this person for some reason or another...well mayb im gullable...mayb im being too nice for my own good or mayb im just plain stupid..or mayb...just mayb there's some reason to explain those unusual high expectation (voice on my shoulder...wake up jeremy..stop dreaming!!!!!!!!its nvr gonna happen u dumbass...stop dreaming and do ur assignments)

well as tht suprise me at the end of my day, i was given even a larger suprise during lunch time but this time its not a pleasant one at all...well i dont really feel like its appropriate to put it online and let the whole world know abt it so i guess i'll just keep it to myself...but yes it is big..its like 4cm in size and im not kidding...i cant emphasize enough..this is serious..so hope tht God is wit me (or rather be wit the perosn tht's involved) ...i hope tht He reads my humble blog..His devine intervention is much needed....

the chequered flag is in site ...approaching the final chicane i am...going at abt 200km/h and i seriously hope tht i dont loose it like fisi did in suzuka...well i guess i'll hv to get myself together and find every nano strength in me to not be like fisi...

i hope i'll be strong
i hope i'll be able to overcome my greatest fear ever (to date)
i hope i dont screw up.....