fatal attraction

it was just a matter of time b4 my hyper-active mind started to hv legs and wander off into the distance with all the spare time i hv on my hands rite now...well the other day it found its way to a place where the only thing tht exist is the truth...the bone chilling kind..and i mean the kind tht suddenly makes u think tht ur nothing but a fool kind...

as my mind proceeded on its journey i found out tht im constantly attracted or i find myself attracted to things/ppl that i CANNOT hv/be with at the present time or things/ppl tht are just not right for me...(hence the title of todays blog...for those old enough u wld know tht its frm a show..hehe)...i've also found out tht when i dont get the things/ppl tht i want i tend to do either of the following:

1. set a reasonable dateline and save super hard untill i can afford wht i want and go get it.....or
2. live in an imaginary world where i hold on to the smallest notion that i somehow as time goes by tht the things tht i want will suddenly drop in valkue and i wld easily afford to buy it and the ppl tht i want to be with will just magically hv a change of heart and start to think tht im not tht bad after all and wld wanna be wit me....

but lately i've notice that i've develop this very bad habit of not doing eother the above and just do nothing abt the situation, which i think is an extremely bad thing to do...
but i just cant help asking myself this question..." of all the things in this world why are u attracted to the things tht u cannot afford?"...or " of all the ppl out there why on earth are u wasting your time with the ppl who dont really wanna be wit u?"....
am i really doomed to a life where i cannot hv wht i really want??
am i really tht bad tht i dont attract ppl tht i find attractive???

well i guess i hv to get use to it as i seriously think tht i wont get the things i want and wont be wit the ppl tht i want at this present time....
if today is anything to go wit i think i better start frm today as i've found out tht i "did not meet our criteria"....

sound painfully familiar...