Musing and mulling

i've nvr been one to believe in horoscopes and stuff like tht but somehow i think after today i might just pay just a little more attn and respect to it....

well the story goes like this...after dull boxing day morning i came home and tried to switch on my comp so tht i cld entertain myself....to my disbelieve, it just switch on without a fight...so after checking emails and the usual stuff i wondered to friendster...once there i notice tht they had change the layout of the whole thing and i must say it looks a whole lot better than the old one....suddenly my eye caught this small section with my horoscope on it...clicking on it the following appeared...
so just incase u cant see it ..it goes like this.."THE BOTTOM LINE: Feeling detached is part of life. Sometimes, you need to give yourself some space."...." IN DETAIL: All the musing and mulling you've been doing can give way now to some excellent and detached decision-making. Your next move at work may suddenly become crystal-clear; if it does, don't hesitate to jump on it. You can also get organized concerning something you've only hoped for up until now -- maybe a sweet plan with friends or a sweetheart. It's all within your power, and the future is definitely at hand."

whts written above sums up my mood/feeling on this very dull/gloomy boxing day and also the whole Christmas weekend..frm Christmas Eve to Christmas Day and now Boxing Day....i can only guess wht's going on...well to tell u the truth i don know wht's going on ...the only thing is.. i dont know wht to do abt it...

somehow somewhere along the line i think i've wondered into the grey part of life...where everything is so confusing and hard to make out...a place where so much is at stake...a place where i generally dont like to be....im an engineer by choice damm it...i dont like being in grey areas...i like it to be either black or white..not a combination of it...guess i dont hv a choice ...im there ady...its too late to complaint and bitch abt it...

another reason which i wld like to attribute to my current mood swing is the fact tht i spend too much time ppl watching just now....while waiting for stuff to get done, i found myself a comfy seat in KLCC and spend abt 2 hrs watching ppl....as i watch life pass me by i just cant help noticing tht i was kind of out of place....well i wont go into details but it suddenly struck me tht my worst fears might come true ....at the rate im going i think it will come true before i know it......i would be a very sad person if it does come true.