Letting Go

This is my 3rd attempt in writing something worth reading but for some reason I cant seem to get anything correct.

Probably it’s the confusion I am going through right now. Some people say that I am putting myself in that position, I don’t blame them, to a certain extend I think I am. My reluctance to believe what I am feeling is hurting me more as the days go by.

I use to think that it will all go away when we speak; when we spend time together it will be ok. You will assure me that everything will be ok. The very assurance that kept me going, that helped me through tough times is slipping away from me.

Maybe I really need to let go, to take a chance, to find out for myself if I really meant that much to you, to really know if all that was said it true. Deep down inside I really want to let go but there is a small voice within me that says otherwise, constantly I am being told that there is a reason why you are in my life. It is saying that there is more than meets the eye.

Perhaps I know that by letting go I will lose a huge part of me, too big to imagine and too big to comprehend for you have been such a huge part of me.

I hope my heart and soul will survive this test and I will see the light at the end of the tunnel.