today

today....
im very sleepy and tired but i cannot sleep...
im so very angry and dissapointed in myself and others
but i cannot lash out...
im exteremly trouble by my behaviour that i dont know who i am anymore
the definition of the word MYSELF is somehow lost within me
lost so deep within me tht i dont know where to start looking for it
preoccupied with temperory happiness and gratification
wasting resources on a scale frightening to others..
to day and like many other days tht past hopelessness
a sense of stupidity and irony fills my soul..
i wish i was anywhere but here
i wish tomoro will be a better day...
i wish tomoro i'll be a better person...