What i've been trying to be

there's two parts to this post.as always i shall start with the sad stuff.

its kind of lonely now.the rain has stopped leaving a chill tht’s all too familiar.i find myself in a place I frequent more than I like to. it brings back painful memories of a time once was. When things were truly simple.i belong.i knew come rain or shine I mattered. I knew you were 1 step behind.looking with admiration and affection. Now when I look behind, all I see is what I’ve once had. the security.the sense of belonging.the support.the smiles.the love.i tell myself its ok.i’ll eventually find myway back to where I belong.i know I will.in at times like these I doubt myself.am I blinding myself?am I turning away?is lying the way forward?how did I find my way here?...will I be somewhere I belong?..do I belong?....looking for an owner.
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Im so very happy. Thank you all.
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