ironic

Here I am, sitting in my office on a Saturday afternoon wondering what might have been…It feels all so surreal…to tell you the truth I’m still having trouble accepting that I am where I am.

It seems like it was yesterday that I had to put up with obnoxious people with unreasonable demands shouting on top of their lungs to have their café latte without milk…fast forward a few years….a couple of speed bumps….a couple of helping hands…I’m an engineer with one of the best integrated circuits assembly and test companies in the world with people listening to every word I say as if they were God given facts.

It’s all so unreal….to top it off…I’ll be having my graduation ceremony next Wednesday…..boy …..I really never thought this day would come….but its here…thanks to a few….a very special few……

Everything happens for a reason, people say……well its so ironic….i have and I’m able to have so much but yet I feel like I lack so much…I remember having nothing at all but yet being so wonderfully happy….not that I’m not happy now a days but happiness now usually comes with a price…which is sad…

How can I be happy and sad at the same time??....easy …because I know my happiness is nothing but temporary…at the end of the day it’s only me myself and i…..that’s why it’s so sad…

Someone that I can love without knowing how, why, when and where….
Someone that is so close to me that your heartbeat feels like mine..
Someone whom that I can trust completely with my heart and soul..
A hand to hold…a heart to love…a soul to share….

Are you outhere?