Life's Lessons

Where do I start, do I start with the part of my life that I went I was virtually insane? Or should I tell you about the countless nights I broke down and cried myself to sleep, better yet should I tell you about the few unforgettable weeks where my fantasy became reality? Probably I should tell you about the time where I felt alienated in my own shell or the time I felt like a nano-organism.

There’s no good place to start really, the stories will only serve as a reminder of how happy, sad, angry, blessed, helpless, and confused I was during that time. So let me tell you what I learn from the whole drama that was my life for the past 3~4 months. I’ll just start in no particular order as my mind is as equally mess up as my emotions.

Perhaps the most important thing I’ve learned during this time is that the things that you don’t know definitely won’t hurt you but if the truth makes it way to you then I can just kill you or rip you into pieces. So when someone don’t tell you something, don’t go out of your way to find out, even if your friend offers to tell you something, choose not to listen. Hold firm in your believes. If not You will regret it. Trust me. Like all things I have learned this the hard way

Friends… we all have them. Some of them we cherish more than we cherish family, some we just don’t want and some of them drift in and out of your life. With all the knick knacks that they bring along how do you know which are worth holding on too even it means giving up yourself or how do you know to give up certain friends as their friendship means less to you than the stranger sitting next to you in the café? You don’t get to choose sadly. The sad fact is that there will be friends that will use and abuse you, some will lie to your face for their own gains, some will be there for you through thick and thin and some will be a passing figure. Point here is that there are a lot of people out there with a lot of motives, agenda, and goals. Be weary of who you trust, especially guys. Now I really know why it’s so hard to trust a guy. I sympathy goes out to all the girls out there.

Life is far easier to live if you go through it without expectations. You set yourself up to be hurt when you expect something. Just do whatever it is that you want to do without expecting even a simple “Thank You”. It’s just easier that way. You don’t feel like a fool at the end of the day, you don’t feel like jumping from your balcony when people lie, scold, disappoint, scorn, and betray you.

This would perhaps be the most important lesson I have learned… Don’t for a moment build your life around 1 single person. Even that person is your friend, girlfriend, boyfriend, fiancé or even your wife. Always leave something for yourself. They might say that they like you, love you even but love and like is subjective really. It last as long as the other person finds a better version of you.

I think your beginning to see a pattern by now. I’m just rambling along without any direction, purpose or thought. That’s the story of my life right now.